Suffering from PTSD, Sean, struggles to fit in with society upon his return from fighting a war in Afghanistan.
Sean says he joined the military to be a mechanic. When he volunteered to go to Afghanistan, he joined a security team with the infantry. He says there were a lot of close calls, and a constant edginess. “Essentially what kept you alive over there was that constant fear of something could go wrong,” Sean said. “Coming back it was like, I don't know really how to explain it. It just, we didn't, you didn't fit in anymore. You didn't fit in. Coming back they just thought it was a joke. Like laughing at us. Like, "Oh it wasn't that bad." No, it was that bad. When the mortars come in, those explosions go off and rock the ground you stood on. It was serious. It wasn't a joke. It's almost like a fear that stays with you. A fear that instills itself in your soul and you can't get rid of it.”
Sean says he found it difficult coming back to the states where people didn’t watch each other’s backs the way he and those he served in a war zone with did. “It’s like nobody wanted to listen. You can really see it in someone’s eyes whenever they’re not there anymore. You might normally talk to your wife or kids, but they don’t need to hear the stories that changed you. It would haunt them or just get to the point of unbelievable. You can’t talk to nobody. You don’t know what to do anymore.” With a 50 percent disability, Sean receives $829 per month to live on. “It’s not enough,” Sean says.